Believe, Don’t Give Up! (Dedicated to My Mom)

Time moves slowly, yet rushes by in a heartbeat.

Or, rather, it keeps on moving, long after a heart beats its final beat.

Today marks the one year anniversary since my mom’s heart beat its final beat in this world.

I miss her so much, especially as the holidays approach.

Memories- of the good times, along with the most heart-wrenching, agonizing moments- come flooding back with a vengeance.

It’s almost unbearable sometimes.

Words may be failing me lately…

Yet my mom managed to sum life up to perfection in one of her own blog posts:

Believe, Don’t Give Up!
By Souad “Sue” Battista
(a.k.a. Tink the Belle)
From Playing by My Own Rules

For every downhill battle, there will be an uphill victory.

For every backward tread, there will be a forward initiative.

For every letdown, there will be contentment.

For every tear, there will be a smile.

Sometimes what seems to be the end, could be just a beginning.

Life is full of endless detours and turnarounds.

Giving up is not an option. Never was, never will be.

My beautiful angel mom.

“There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle”. ~Albert Einstein

Bigly Bestest Sad Goodbye

@thebiglybestestdoggie:  Cousin Chloe, you were a very good doggie. You lived a great life, and you were so very loved. You have been a loyal friend to us all, and I hereby grant you the honorary title of Bestest Little Angel Doggie. Rest in peace, sweet cousin. We love you always.

“If there are no dogs in Heaven, then when I die I want to go where they went.” ~Will Rogers

A Tribute to My Mom

I never wanted to have to write this post.

And I’m struggling to do so now.

It was the first cloudless, bright sunny day after nearly a week of rain.

It was also the day my mom took her last breath.

Paradoxical as it may sound, it was still a beautiful day.

In a strange way.

Because it meant my mom was no longer in pain.

No longer spending every waking moment in agony.

No more excruciating daily struggles.

No more endless doctor appointments.

No more countless scans and blood work.

No more urgent trips to the hospital.

No more useless pills to try to mask the pain.

She is finally at peace.

Finally free of cancer.

Once and for all.

My heart aches with sadness.

But her suffering is over, and that’s what truly matters.

She is a survivor of war.

A recipient of miracles.

And the strongest, most determined, bravest person I had ever had the honor of knowing.

On December 10, 2018, heaven gained a new angel.

This is not the ending to the story that we’d hoped for.

But, in my heart, I know it isn’t truly “the end”.

Because love lives forever.

Hope lives on.

And nothing can ever take that away.

We Get Only Today
By Souad “Sue” Battista
(a.k.a. Tink the Belle)
From Playing by My Own Rules

I

won’t run away from  a challenge

I

Will move towards it

I

Will not let fear blind me

I

Will Face it

I

Will not hide from the truth

I

Will Learn from it

I

Search in the darkness

I

Seek the light

I

Won’t see an end

I

Find a new beginning

I

Will not turn away from myself

But

Back to myself

Fly high, Mom. I will always love you, and I will miss you forever.

Fly high, Mom. I will always love you, and I will miss you forever.

~I’ve got a lot of catching up to do, with blogging and life as a whole. My posts will likely be sporadic for a while until everything settles, but I’d like to take a moment to thank you all for your kindness and support, and to wish you a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, in case I’m not up to speed before then.~